There are days when I can’t wait to just finish and get my yoga practice out of the way. Today was one of those days. My head seemed to be out of sorts coming from a crazy night, a distracted meditation session then discovering as I get to the studio that it would be a self-led class with a new teacher. I dislike being in a state of doing for the sake of habit, simply breezing through just because I feel that I have to do so. Even this morning’s writing seems forced because I am doing it from a sense of obligation.
But this is a good reminder to reign our attention back to what we are doing and why we are doing it. Some people call it the practice of homecoming, pulling our attention back to the present. It is during these times when we choose to show up even if we don’t feel like it that we strengthen our willpower. It is part of a holistic everyday practice.
What jolted me back to presence was a reminder from the new teacher- fear inhibits growth. It is the same reminder from the DJs on the radio on my way to work today. So I wonder what this means in the context of habit. Maybe it’s about the daily choice to experience fully, even those that scare us the most. It is only in the everyday trying that we grow beyond our comfort zones. This conscious decision woven into every habit is what builds us.